Fifty Miles South of the Heart and Still My Search for You Continues

caressherbeauty @ 2005-06-04T16:52:00

2005-06-04T21:52:50Z

I met a girl, well actually i would say becoming better friends with a girl by the name of JAIME STOKER who makes me really happy!

caressherbeauty @ 2005-05-27T15:07:00

2005-05-27T20:08:46Z

tonight i am going to cypress to see the last starfighter. from what i have heard, the kids in this area are probably like the lamest scene kids ever. haha

caressherbeauty @ 2005-05-23T06:20:00

2005-05-23T11:21:44Z

donnybrook, the hoods, bloody sunday and since the flood show is cancelled :*-(

last night was a lot of fun, i got drunk with a mormon.

caressherbeauty @ 2005-05-16T14:17:00

2005-05-16T19:17:44Z

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I AM BORED, SO I SHALL SAY MY SAY

2005-04-15T21:47:58Z

FUCK FASHION!!!

i hate it how all these lil scene kids go around with their girl hair cuts, girl jeans, track jackets, pink being their favorite color, wearing puma, asics or macbeth shoes, favorite bands are norma jean or a band that everyone else listens too, 00 guages, right side of your lip pierced and calling your emo bands hardcore. man, that is one huge sentence, but it is true.
what the fuck is hardcore about wearing chick jeans? umm nothing.
go to a hardcore show, you won't see any of the bands wearing girl jeans or shit like that. go to a hardcore show and see if you come out in the same condition that you wnet in if you wear girl jeans. Hardcore bands for the most part have shaved heads, wear basketball shorts and just wear t-shirts and don't give a fuck about what people think about them....for all you fear before the march of flames/norma jean/atreyu lovers, go listen to some real hardcore for a change. i bet you won't even like it..

HXC bands you should check out:
Pride Kills
Die Young
Donny Brook
Hoods
Terror
Sheer Terror
Blood For Blood
No Innocent Victim
Bound in Blood
xLooking Forwardx
xShutdownx
xiceXpickx
Laces Out
With Honor
Comeback Kid
Sick Of It All
Bad Brains
Badluck 13
7 Seconds
Champion
Bane
Madball
xfloor punchx
Love is Red
xTouchdownx
Ten Yard Fight
In The Face of War
100 Demons
and etc.

Greatest Quote Ever:
"I need more guitars in the moniter and less dudes with girls haircuts in the front"

-Guitarist of A Life Once Lost

i smile a lot!

2005-03-07T17:50:29Z

yesterday was really fun!!!!!!! derek and i went to bennigans for about an hour or so and ate lunch. i got the chicken fajita quessadillas and he got the golden chicken strips, so good! i went to my dads friends house afterwards where we were bbqing and what not. i got to see brad's daughter ashley for the first time in like 2 years, that shit is crazy. she is so cool, i am glad she is back in kingwood. i let her straighten my hair and that took like an hour or so. i looked like a moeffin neanderthal. LOL....about an hour after she did that, i called my beautiful gf, LAUREN, and she came and got me and we went back to her house. we watched some movie about this girl who had cancer and found her true love and than died. so basically a typical love movie. we than went to chilis and pnut and i shared a chocolate cake with ice cream on top of it and a chocolate shake. mmmmmmmm, so good! we went back to her house afterwards and than pnut brought me home and we had a lovely conversation as always. we decided that we are going to do the following next saturday unless we have a show.....

1)go for a long walk in the woods and go to place that i know of by the lake and eat lunch.
2)go bowling
3)go to the zoo
4)go watch the planes land on the runway
5)rent a movie and go back to her place

we might have a show at walters that night with Forever Dies Tonite, Sirens Over Athens, Ardor and As Eden Burns
the show will own if it happens

caressherbeauty @ 2005-03-06T11:45:00

2005-03-06T17:54:10Z

VICTORIA OWNED!!!!!!! we had so much fun playing there and we can't wait to go back. it was so awesome seeing 15 people dancing for us and than people two steppin it up. the food that MASTER CHEF CODY made was delicous, hopefully he will be cooking next week.

well the trip to victoria took us 3 effin hours, but it was well worth it. we had a place to stay and all, but we decided to drive back home. I GOT TO DRIVE 65 MILES ILLEGALLY! YAY, GO ME!!! we got back into huffman around 5:30, which wasn't too bad and we stayed up and watched our video.

I got to hang out with my lovely girlfriend yesterday, we had so much fun. I had to meet her dad and guess what, he likes me.(raises fist in air and pulls it down in victory)...Lauren and i went and ate sushi yesterday, we had so much fun doing that. we than went to the mall and than to my house and than back up to the mall to meet up with DC(film dude) so he could follow us to the show. the show ended up kinda sucking and we should have listened to zach and not played there. well anyways, after the show, peanut i went to a couple of spots. i knew of a few places that she would really like, she really enjoyed it. i think today her and i are going to go on a walk. :-)

\m/ MARCH TO THE CANNONS MOUTH \m/

2005-03-04T06:31:10Z

VICTORIA, HERE I COME!

we are playing james of forever dies tonite's bday show tonight in Victoria with:
En Requiem(adolf and julian of with all sincerity....david and zach of they came burning)
Forever Dies Tonite
March To The Cannons Mouth
Incenerate the Sky
and more

everyone go to victoria tomorrow to watch us slay the almighty metal dragon

caressherbeauty @ 2005-02-28T20:09:00

2005-03-01T02:09:10Z

VERY HAPPY!

i would like everyone to know that I now have a beautiful girlfriend by the name of Lauren "peanut" Savoy. We went out on saturday and ate sushi at HB Japanese Steak House and Sushi Bar, our bill was $55 and we had the greatest time of our lives. After that we went to her house and on the way there i suggested that we rent the movie the notebook since she had never seen it. Her mom suggested that we go to Chilis after the movie to get some desert, so we did. Lauren and I spent an hour and a half talking each others heads off before even ordering anything. I asked her what time it was and she said "11:54" and she had to be home in 6 minutes. so she called her mom and told her that we hadn't even ordered and she got kinda mad. after we ate our cake, nachos and chips, we went to wal-mart and goofed off. we then went to my place and that is when i popped the question. i walked her to her car around 1:40 and it started to rain, so i wrapped her in my arms and gave her a huge kiss.

i am going to make her the happiest girl ever! :-)

caressherbeauty @ 2005-02-25T04:48:00

2005-02-25T10:53:05Z

i met an awesome girl, and we both really like each other! we clicked right from the get go, which is totally awesome........i am stoked, we are playing in victoria two weekends in a row

March 4th w/forever dies tonite.......this is james of fdt's bday show, so we are going to shred the fucking metal and party down.

March 11th w/At All FUCKING Cost, Forever Dies Tonite, Sirens Over Athens and Highwater waltz.....this is the cd release/tour kickoff for fdt, so this show will own like no other.

it is really badass how we became really close with forever dies tonite in the past week. they are fucking badass dudes, we love them to death.

caressherbeauty @ 2005-02-16T14:04:00

2005-02-16T20:05:23Z

I MET AN AWESOME GIRL! Hopfuelly something happens between us!

going to see Unearth/Scars of Tomorrow/Atreyu tonight, that should be fun!

caressherbeauty @ 2005-02-07T02:03:00

2005-02-07T08:14:03Z

man o man, the past couple of weeks have been totally awesome!!!!!!
september massacre played with eighteen visions, emery, misery signals and remembering never and that was totally awesome!

my metal band, march to the cannons mouth, will be playing their first show on february 20th @ rayford community center for my really good friend leelee's birthday party, she will be turning the big 2-0! so everyone come out and see this amazing show consisting of the last starfighter, as eden burns, the september massacre, new action hero, ps, forever dies tonight. we're also playing the road rage tour w/ 3 inches of blood, the agony scene, trivium and still remains.....i am stoked, agony scene's vocalist and i are going to battle to see who can get higher! we're touring in the summer for 4 weeks w/gunmetal grey(indianola records) and through the eyes of the dead(lovelost records) and than 2 weeks w/cephalic carnage(relapse records) and fleshgrind(century media records)..........that should be so much fun!

i have now officially went into the record label business as a partnership with my good friend shiela....the label is called Battle Theory Records, we should be signing bands starting in late march/early april...i am stoked!

my birthday show was amazing, so many of my friends came out and it was awesome. my friend summer made me an awesome tape and got me a dinosaur for my bday. my friend chels and cecila got me a porn, condoms and some other shit.....man o man, i will make an entry just about my bday show tomorrow and what else happened today.

GOODNIGHT AND GOD BLESS!

caressherbeauty @ 2005-01-16T15:02:00

2005-01-16T21:07:05Z

yay!! only like 3 more days until my band plays with eighteen visions, emery, remembering never and misery signals!

i am so happy right now, my metal band, march to the cannons mouth, is going to be doing some serious touring this summer with:
Cephalic Carnage(relapse records)
Gunmetal Grey(indianola records)
Through The Eyes of The Dead(lovelost records)
Fleshgrind(Century Media Records)
and maybe a few others here and there.

we plan on going out for a month and half in the summer, hitting the south us, east coast, go into canada and than the midwest. doing the midwest and some of canada in the fall and than doing the west coast in the winter. I AM STOKED!

my birthday show is at fuel on february 5th w/last starfighter, by the end of tonight, charaltan, as eden burns, at all cost and others.....some of the bands may change

The Abortion To Your Creation Is Based On His Design

2005-01-12T07:25:20Z

The Abortion To Your Creation Is Based On His Design:

escape from his design is forbidden,
resting our souls on the fate of a list.
thinking only old age will let him take us in,
we believe in nothing of his doing and raise our fist

we waltz, each step missing his path,
but he has moved ahead unannounced
at this point we do not fear the power of his wrath,
but he can already taste your love, every ounce.

all of sudden our nightmares become reality,
we run for our lives, but death has no exits.
trapped, nowhere to hide, he raises his hand
and slams it down, penetrating his glory into
our master. The agony that comes upon us is
unreal, with the keen extraction of ancesteral
deriavation covering our fallen ones. the bloodshed
of our loved ones has never been so devestating.
into the darkness of his room we retract, wishing
that this was the end, but this is only the beginning.
the tears that enter our mouths only make our lullabies
taste bitter and our screams become silent. gasping for
our last breaths, he finishes everyone of us off, one by one.
leaving us with a lifeless room of unholy remains,
cadavers on top of one another. this is what we only dreamed
of in the darkness of our hearts, but now we have become
a part of life, to the fullest extent. rest assure, we only
thought he was a tale, but now we know the truth

ascending into the footsteps of the next world,
i realized something.creation is crucifixion, we're
all meant to die, we're chosen by design. there is
no escape.

what do you think?

caressherbeauty @ 2005-01-11T04:23:00

2005-01-11T10:33:44Z

i have realized something, i love my friends like my own family. i have the greatest friends ever! i will always be here for them, even when they need it the most and no one else is here for them. i will even be here for the ones who have talked shit about me.

<3 Tobin

ending her last entry with blood

2005-01-02T23:59:51Z

OMG so much has happened since my last entry. I have become really good friends with three lovely ladies: amber, jamie and kelsey! well let me tell you a lil bit about each day.

Dec. 25th- Our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ's Birthday
I woke up around 1 and spent time with the family and whatnot. my friend meghan came and picked me up for the christmas show at rayford around 4 and we stopped at jack n the box on the way. the dude behind the counter said he had not slept in a day or so and was really tired, so when i gave him a $100 bill, he gave me 5 $20 bills back. :-)....the show was awesome and the last starfighter renamed a song for me

sum of rock is now sum of mosh

after the show, i spent the night with meghan and we had loads of fun and she took pictures of me in short shorts. LOL

dec. 26th
i went to eat mexican food with meghan and went home. later that night i went over to zachs house and i have no clue what we did.

dec. 27th
ok, this night just owned. we had a show at the rayford community center and it was pretty sweet. what made this night a lot of fun was staying at the rayford center w/amber, jamie, kelsey, december dissillusion and ghost of a chance. david(ghost of a chance), amber, jamie, kelsey and i didn't go to sleep until like 3 in the morning. we went outside and were going to go on a nature hike in the woods, but quickly realized that there were no woods to go on a nature hike in. :-(....so we went behind the rayford center on this long white road and tried to figure out these words to a journey song, but we had to call marshall for assistance. LOL......we than went out to the parking lot and looked up at the stars for a lil while and decided that it was really cold outside. LOL....ok, we were trying to go to sleep and amber and jamie would not stop laughing, they would laugh at any and everything for no reason at all. i woke up like around five because my head was really cold, i guess that happens when someone(jamie) stills your pillow and your head is laying on a cold tile floor. LOL..oh i almost forgot, we celebrated kelsey's 18th bday and had the incredibles and spiderman cupcakes. mmmmmmmm so good! those 3 girls own so much!

ok i am getting tired of typing all of this out, LOL

summary of the rest of the time.
had a show at cardis on the 28th and spent the night with caitlin and rochelle, had to wear her cheerleading shorts since i ripped mine. went to dereks the next day and we went to the mall and i bought a BTBAM and Mastodon shirt. the next night derek and i went and spent the night with caitlin and rochelle. we went to the new years eve show at fuel and OMG that was so much fun. my 3 lady friends were there and it was very nice to see them. amber and i threw down like no other with my soul sister bruce lee friend BRAXLEY. some dumb girls were puchning me in the stomach when i was singing along to mortal treason, they just suck! As Eden Burns, The Last Starfighter, Mortal Treason and The Finalist did awesome and i really like the new song by Crossover. after the show amber, jamie, jason, kelsey and i all went to denny's and had a lot of fun there. we talked with a josh, new member of crossover, and he is like the coolest most down to earth guys ever. oh snap, i forgot something, summer took a pic of me at fuel and it is the second pic i actually like of myself. she is a badass with the camera. ok, my grandma got in town on new years day around 1 or so and i had to leave for band practice around 1:30...i felt bad, because i haven't seen her in forever and she lives in kansas. :-(..but i had a show that night so we had to practice.....the show went very well, a lot of people liked us which is always a good thing. amber, jamie and kelsey got there right after we played and i went and bought amber and jamie some wendys. wendys is so effin good in my belly, but probbaly not the greatest of meat.LOL o well! amber and i danced the night away and i annihilated so many scene and nu-metal kids. it was bunches of fun, and i cant wait to do it again. after the show, amber, jamie, justin and i went to jamies for gumbo. i felt bad for amber, she had bruises all over her arms and couldn't lift her arm up to eat her gumbo. well after that jamie brought me home and i haven't done anything today. i was suppoe to go to church with amber today, but didn't have a ride so i guess i will next week.

<3 always,

Tobin

he layed his hand down upon my breast, oh how i beg for more

2004-12-25T05:44:21Z

OMFG i have finally found an amazing drummer for my metal band, March To The Cannons Mouth! his name is travis fincher and damnizzle that boy can play the fucking drums like no other. he is liek that nigga on that drumline movie. we should really well with him and our first show will be my birthday show @ r2's in humble w/the last starfighter, at all cost, statuescrybleeding, as eden burns, dividing crisis, ardor, highwater waltz and many more. i so can't wait.

ok, everyone is getting snow at there house down here in houston, tx besides me. please make me feel not alone and say that there is no snow at your house, please for the love of God. LOL

the september massacre has a show at the rayford community center on dec. 27th

Dec. 28th @ cardis
dec. 30th @ the white swan
january 1st @ java jazz

please come out and support.

One other note, march to the cannons mouth will be touring in the summer with the james dean trio, and the sky went red and possibly kill the last hour. they will each get on different parts of the tour or something, i dunno.

<3 Tobin

The Knives Begin SInging and They're Weaping For Your Flesh

2004-12-16T05:50:29Z

So what have i been up to the past week or so, umm a lot!
i had three shows last weekend and everyone of them was alot of fun, especially at r2's. the crowd went nust for us and we played really tight. we played with my really good friends in as eden burns and the last starfighter, so that was awesome. OMG AS EDEN BURNS OWNS YOUR SOUL!!!!! there was this band from Indiana known as In The Face Of War who just owned, true blue hardcore that made me want to throw it down on the dance floor like no other. I somewhat met this really badass chick that goes by the name christina, she can throw some mad bows. well yeah she owns and likes my back bends that i do on the dance floor. <333.........i think we're going on a sushi date sometime soon, that will own. well my band is recording over the christmas holidays and than we have like 6 shows over the holidays as well, i am so excited.... i am now in a technical deathmeta/noisecore/deathgrind band, i am so effin stoked. we're called Assemble The Machine, Annihilate The Body....our drummer is an amazing beast behind the set. i do the low vocals for the band, so i sing in 3 bands now. The September Massacre, March to the Cannons Mouth and now the new one. well i am outt here, i have exams in the morning.

caressherbeauty @ 2004-12-10T02:44:00

2004-12-10T08:47:01Z

everyone go support us at java jazz tomorrow night.

we're now playing with the last starfighter, as eden burns and kill the last hour at fuel and will be opening. everyone please go out and support us, the september massacre.

<3 Tobin

caressherbeauty @ 2004-12-06T16:54:00

2004-12-06T23:00:27Z

The September Massacre: Upcoming shows

Dec. 10th @ Java Jazz
w/ Dividing Crisis, Rhenium and This Sacred Tragedy

Dec. 11th @ R2's
w/ Faster We Fall

Dec. 22nd @ The White Swan
w/El Capitan, This Was The Year To Lose Friends, Dividing Crisis, Vessle Casts For Cripples Hands

Dec. 27th @ Rayford(this show is a maybe, have to talk with eric about it, but just letting you know something might be up)

January 1st @ Java Jazz
w/ Impathy

come and support the september massacre and i will give you a 5 second frencher.
MUAH

Bleach My Blood Stained Wings With White Roses

2004-12-05T21:55:39Z

Last night was like the greatest night ever, well actually tonight might be, because i am going on a date with a very lovely lady known as Christina Juliano. well back to last night: my band, the september massacre, opened at fuel and i guess we blew everyone away. a lot of people said we were the best band that played there last night and some girl said that we were one of the best bands to ever play at fuel. that is awesome, and puts a smile on my face. all these peeps need to be on the watch out for my other bnad, march to the cannons mouth. that band will own everyones face! we also played at R2's and let me just say, that venue blows. maybe once they get a sound system in there it will be better. well i am outta here.

caressherbeauty @ 2004-12-03T02:20:00

2004-12-03T08:26:50Z

yay, i got an extension on my community service!
man, i so had a free ticket, backstage pass and VIP parking to the slayer, mastodon and killswitch engage concert last night, but i wasn't able to go cause of gay court.

i have a show on saturday at the Fuel Cyber Cafe, everyone go support the september massacre.

Madden 2005 for XBOX is the most amazing game known to man, you should definitley buy it if you have an XBOX.

september massacre has a 95% chance of playing with Eighteen Visions, Misery Signals, Emery and Remembering Never....if we get on the bill, we will probably have to sale tickets, so save up money for this gay show. LOL

I love you forever and forever ends today

2004-11-30T01:36:58Z

man, screaming in front of 20 mexicans and a crazy ass asian guy is so much effin fun!
Last night, we played at cardis and had a super fun time.
we pulled up to the show in a black suburban ridin on 20's.

we want lower prices and less of you

2004-11-28T02:00:50Z

Last night was so much effin fun! it started off around 5:46 and zach and i were on our way to the engine room and i called holden to see if we could get on his guest list and he tells me that I am singing for them because there vocalist wasn't going to show up. so yeah we finally get set up on stage and i guess i did an amazing job at vocals, although i didn't know any of the words. LOL i am playing at cardis with them tomorrow. i am probably going to get shot.

Hidden Hands of a Sadist Nation!

2004-11-25T19:05:38Z

I am so ordering that bia bia in a week!

HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE!